Going AWOL

I'm in my mom's office right now in the Philippine Ports Authority head office. The people here are snoozing off the after, and I'm taking the chance to get some free blogging time. I didn't go to work today, obviously. I practically begged mom not to make me go. But she said that since this is my first job, it would be much better if I made a polite exit. So I called TL and asked her if I can go about getting an immidiate resignation. My job will be over and done with by November 1, All Soul's Day. I'm not sure if I'd still be going to work then, since the enrollment will be on the 30 to the 31st of this month. Boji's will be this Sunday, the 29th. Papa would be withdrawing a huge chunk of cash this weekend..
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Speaking of my beloved grandfather, he erupted today when the paperwork about the house couldn't be found. Mom says he was just acting it; nevertheless, it made me a bit jumpy. I am not used to a man yelling. Boji can be harsh sometimes, but when we fight, I'm usually the one who is shouting. And mom, well, she's the only parent I was able to see really angry. And it wasn't a good sight.
Mom cried out of frustration. She isn't feeling well, having helped Boji get the stuff he needs for their event today. Table setting something? He's about to be inducted as an officer... The trainees are now just three (starting from the original 27 hopefuls) and my baby brother is acting as their leader. He celebrated his birthday yesterday with the nonstop downpour and a long list of to-do.
I'm just glad he's taking on his responsibilities much more focused.
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I'd be going to UST after this, after I wake mom up. I need to process my returning this sem, then I'd have to go home and get some sleep so I can go to work tomorrow and present the letter of resignation to TL. I'd go from there I guess.
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Five more days and I'd be free from my first job... However productive and helpful it had been, financially and socially-speaking, I'm glad I'm done... Schoolwork! I'm back!!!

Jumble

A lot of stuff needs to be written and I only have a limited amount of time. It feels as if I'm on a major turning point in my young life again. I guess I am just being my dramatic self. But really, there's a lot of changes that is about to happen. And weirdly enough, these changes will bring me back to what was normal for me, before I ever started earning money and being an "adult".

But before I go on let me start from the beginning... (My writer's soul just can't go on telling a story without being organized with the deets.)

Fang Mi, Aileen and I met up last Monday in SM San Lazaro and went on to watch "Stardust" starring Claire Danes, Robert DeNiro, Michelle Pfieffer and newcomer Charlie Cox who is btw, so hot. I've read the original book version written by Neil Gaiman, and I loved how magical it was and yet it was realistic. It was human and adult even if it was filled with magic. I'm grateful that stories like it still exist --- makes me remember that getting old doesn't have to be synonymous to losing faith in magic and fairytales. I highly recommend the movie, whether or not you've read the book (although it would be better to read it first then watch it, but it's up to you...)

As usual, the time I've spent with my friends seemed just too short. I missed them, I missed schoolwork, I missed school life.. and I hated my job.

I just couldn't bear it so I confided with my brother (who is actually celebrating his 17th birthday today!) and he suggested that I should just go back. So I talked with mom and my grandparents, who'd be the major source of money for my and Boj's tuition fee and now I've just gotten back from UST. I'd be going back tomorrow after work for more info on going about enrolling a semester late. It'd be a challenge to be an irregular student, but at least I'm only irregular because I stopped to help in the finances. I take pride that in the last six months I've been productive.

I already told my TL about my plans of ending my eTelecare days. My contract ends November 8, and I'm resigning November 10. Problem is, school starts November 5, so I have no idea how I'd manage them both. Oh well. One step at a time. I'm already absent today. I'd probably be absent next Tuesday for enrollment. Hay.

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Even if I know it'll be a lot of work, I'm excited to go back to "normal". I can't wait. I'm actually tempted on going AWOL like Toni and Dawn, who didn't show up yesterday for her trial. Hay. But I already told my TL that I don't want a bad record with eTel. Besides if I'm going to take a part time job while in school, I'd also be using the six months experience I had with eTel as a reference. So I would have to juggle school and work for the next few more days.

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Aside from all these life decisions, I found out the answer of this big ugly question I had since my dad died. It surprised me and at the same time made me realize that God never meant to hurt me. In fact, He had protected me. I just wished I knew. I just wished I could've taken care of my dad as well...

Cryptic enough? ;p

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I'm gonna go and play with my profile in Friendster again. Probably would visit Neopets as well. Take care.

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I wonder why people seem to be changing as they grow older... for example, before she never liked getting her picture taken... and now I see her with her new best friend, and even if I'm happy for her (truly I am), I can't help but get hurt... and wonder... *sigh

The Old and the New

I was contemplating on deleting my blog in Blogspot, but then I realized that I've been using it since December last year, so it would just be a waste of cyber "space" to just delete it. So I'm still undecided if I'm going to keep both accounts and paste the same posts on both. Hmmm.
The reason why I never liked Friendster blogs is because there's no freedom in making it your own. And I didn't learn the basics of HTML for nothing, y'know! Also, before when I had to go to UST library to get my daily dose of Internet use, Friendster is blocked. So I could only blog using the usual blog sites. LJ never worked for me. Too many steps before the main blogging part. Blogdrive, before was just boring. They have new things there now. Xanga was also boring, but the rings were fun. Diaryland is for kids, although it is cute. So Blogspot or Blogger was the best option. It is the longest running blog that I had, even if I haven't posted on it for more than a month now, having set up my blog in Friendster.
It doesn't matter to me if my blog's being read or not. This is my stress-buster, not my way of getting attention. I can get that easily, haha. Seriously, I just don't know if I can maintain both blogs at the same time. And now that I've just played with my Blogger template, I'm leaning into keeping that one instead.
Oh well. Abangan ang susunod na kabanata.
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I went to work last night from 11 PM to 6 AM to help out in the Workstation Warlah decorations. 5K's at stake and TL Mitch is hoping we could win so we could use it for a team outing or something. I think we're the most creative team, and everyone would agree that we deserve an A for the effort. I love that I'm getting the chance to be creative. I'm sooo bored with my job. Once again I'm caught in the web of something I need (ie MONEY) and something I want (ie GO BACK TO SCHOOL, among other things). Anyways, final touches should be made by tonight, which is why I was willing to give up one of my nights off. On Tuesday, the OMs would be doing the judging and TL would pull me out of the phone (yey!) to do the presentation. Oh, and btw, our new team name is MAUI. I made grass skirts for dolls and tress from cups and straws. It should be from recycleable materials, although many teams opted to buy theirs... Hmm.
Now, Tuesday would be a BIG Day. Aside from the Warlah Judging, it is also Dawn's judgment day. A little dramatic there I know, but I'm scared for her --- and for me. If they (whoever they will be) decide not to give Dawn a second chance, she'd be gone. And I wouldn't have anyone left. Toni already went on AWOL after just two months. I'm not sure if I can stay for 6 more months alone. Cross fingers.
Lastly, Tuesday might be the early birthday celebration for my brother's 17th birthday. Dunno what's gonna happen. *shrugs.

I'm also going to UST tomorrow. Yey!
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Less than an hour more for me. I'm gonna play with my profile now, and I think I'm gonna watch Britney's performance in VMA. Delayed info...
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I don't go to church but I would like to pray for the souls of the departed on the 1019's bombing of G2. I've never even been there. God lead their souls, and also the ones they have left behind....