Jumble

A lot of stuff needs to be written and I only have a limited amount of time. It feels as if I'm on a major turning point in my young life again. I guess I am just being my dramatic self. But really, there's a lot of changes that is about to happen. And weirdly enough, these changes will bring me back to what was normal for me, before I ever started earning money and being an "adult".

But before I go on let me start from the beginning... (My writer's soul just can't go on telling a story without being organized with the deets.)

Fang Mi, Aileen and I met up last Monday in SM San Lazaro and went on to watch "Stardust" starring Claire Danes, Robert DeNiro, Michelle Pfieffer and newcomer Charlie Cox who is btw, so hot. I've read the original book version written by Neil Gaiman, and I loved how magical it was and yet it was realistic. It was human and adult even if it was filled with magic. I'm grateful that stories like it still exist --- makes me remember that getting old doesn't have to be synonymous to losing faith in magic and fairytales. I highly recommend the movie, whether or not you've read the book (although it would be better to read it first then watch it, but it's up to you...)

As usual, the time I've spent with my friends seemed just too short. I missed them, I missed schoolwork, I missed school life.. and I hated my job.

I just couldn't bear it so I confided with my brother (who is actually celebrating his 17th birthday today!) and he suggested that I should just go back. So I talked with mom and my grandparents, who'd be the major source of money for my and Boj's tuition fee and now I've just gotten back from UST. I'd be going back tomorrow after work for more info on going about enrolling a semester late. It'd be a challenge to be an irregular student, but at least I'm only irregular because I stopped to help in the finances. I take pride that in the last six months I've been productive.

I already told my TL about my plans of ending my eTelecare days. My contract ends November 8, and I'm resigning November 10. Problem is, school starts November 5, so I have no idea how I'd manage them both. Oh well. One step at a time. I'm already absent today. I'd probably be absent next Tuesday for enrollment. Hay.

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Even if I know it'll be a lot of work, I'm excited to go back to "normal". I can't wait. I'm actually tempted on going AWOL like Toni and Dawn, who didn't show up yesterday for her trial. Hay. But I already told my TL that I don't want a bad record with eTel. Besides if I'm going to take a part time job while in school, I'd also be using the six months experience I had with eTel as a reference. So I would have to juggle school and work for the next few more days.

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Aside from all these life decisions, I found out the answer of this big ugly question I had since my dad died. It surprised me and at the same time made me realize that God never meant to hurt me. In fact, He had protected me. I just wished I knew. I just wished I could've taken care of my dad as well...

Cryptic enough? ;p

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I'm gonna go and play with my profile in Friendster again. Probably would visit Neopets as well. Take care.

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I wonder why people seem to be changing as they grow older... for example, before she never liked getting her picture taken... and now I see her with her new best friend, and even if I'm happy for her (truly I am), I can't help but get hurt... and wonder... *sigh