Four Day Weekend

@ Work right now. No calls, thank God. Funny how boring it can be to answer the phone for eight hours, five days a week.
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Signed up for a reschedule next week, so I'd be enjoying my four day weekend right after today's shift up until Tuesday... Thinking about it makes me all gooey. I can finally go swimming, set up my bank account, fix my pre-employment requirements, fix my room and my closet and get some sleep!
Sweeet!
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Not in the mood to blog... on last break... ;]

Am Sleepy

Am at work now, Tuesday shift about to start in 3 minutes. Need to produce years today! Regret watching Jack Black's "Nacho Libre". Should have slept instead. But really wanted to hang around with my brother. Oh well, two more VCDs to watch till Thursday.
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Commish is IN at last!
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VTO!!!!
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Last one minute... Later.

On Break

I'm at work now, on my first break. Already have two cfs, one pending sb. No years yet. Sorry if you don't get the Speedway register. It's a call center thing. :]

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After finishing my PC renting time, I went to check my ATM only to find that the commish hasn't been deposited yet. Now I found out that it won't come until Aug 29, which they keep saying to be a Tuesday, when I see that its a Wednesday. Would have to ask my TL about that...

Still have 1000 left, but would really, really need the commish ASAP. Mom needs to pay Boji's tuition by Tuesday. Hopefully, it will rain money... *one can always dream...

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Eight minutes into my break... Would have to get 3 more cfs, 3 more sbs and at least 5 yrs to get coaching today, and then go on VTO perhaps, if its avail. I don't really feel like going home, becauase I really want to get my stats back up. It sadly went into a nosedive last week, which would make it my first ever decrease in production after two months of taking in calls. :[

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Anyways, I was finally able to rent "The Notebook" VCD from ACA. Absolutely love Ryan Gosling and Rachel McAdams. "The Notebook" is by far the most romantic movie I've ever watched. I also got to watch "She's the Man" starring Amanda Bynes and Channing Tatum (who played Jason Lyle in the flick "Coach Carter", I realized today). Over all my weekend was great.

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UST won over NU earlier. Sweet! Next will be a rematch with ADMU, scheduled 4PM on Thursday. Won't missed that for sure.

Remembered I needed to check when would the Cheerdance be... Might be able to watch it live for the first time! Ha!

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Last two minutes of break... Wish me a productive shift! :]

Thankful

I had the best time yesterday. After shift, I decided its better to go with Dawn and my other workmates to Cubao and take a ride from there to UST, even if it was early. Told mom I'd do some checking around in Gateway to pass some time, even debating on catching a movie or not. Glad I decided against it.
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Mom texted me that she needs me to process my brother's promisory note for Prelims starting Wednesday. I wasn't sure if they'd allow me but since I had two hours to make do, I relented. It turned out that Boji would have to process it by Tuesday morning, which can be a problem because mom can only raise 5T and we need to pay 6250. I'll try to give my share... Its commission day today anyway, so the money might me in the ATM already. Or it might come by Monday. We'll see.
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I had to make a detour to my brother's building because I forgot to put the birthday cards I had prepared for Chelle and Aileen. My God, Boji's building is so tall. I never particularly liked the Medicine building, it being so tall and humongous. Anyway, in payment for his bringing the cards, I brought cinnamon roll from Goldilocks, but my beloved brother said he needed cash, so I gave him additional 100.
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By then I was getting worried that I won't have enough money to pay for our celebration. So I withdrew 5H from my ATM and met up with my friends at the Educ Pav. We had KFC Fully Loaded meals, and three packs of french fries. I was willing to splurge because it was my celebration.
I got a bag from Mimi, a wrislet and earring from Gef, a new planner and earrings from Aileen. *I lost my old planner which is why I'm absolutely loving Aileen's gift. BTW, Boji also had a gift in a form of a simple letter that turned me into mush...
Chelle and Lloyd were also present. Javi was AWOL *hmp*, and Oliver sadly couldn't come because he had duty as a scholar.
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We had a great time, eating, talking. Afterwards, Lloyd had to go to a meeting, being the UST Pax Romana president. Gef and Aileen also had to go home, while Mimi had to go to her tutoring job. Chelle and I decided to take the Recto route, since it looked like it was about to rain. We got into talking about school and how hard it is for her. I know she can get through whatever she's going through now... I did. And now I'm stronger for it.
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I thought when I got off the LRT Katipunan station that its going to be a long way home, then I turned my head and there was my best friend Mika, with her younger sister Alex. Again a lot of talking ang sharing. I missed Mika. We've known each other since we were in Kindergarten. She had been the one constant friend I had all these years.
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When I got home, I couldn't help but smile at the idea of having all these people as my friends. To think that seven years ago I was contemplating suicide after feeling like I'm so alone.
I'm so done with that...
And yet, I couldn't stop myself from thinking about Anna.
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I guess what hurts is that even if I know I have all this friends, the fact is, I lost one before because of pride and jealousy. And I could never be able to get her back because... well, because.
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So the lesson today: BE THANKFUL OF THE PRESENT. Time travel is still a far-off fictional dream, so cherish what you've got NOW!
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Peace out!
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Officially ended my account in TeenTalk and WitchmagPH.

Till next time.

On Being a Grown Up

One word friends --- it's excruciating. To be a grown up means A LOT of things, while meaning one single thing all at the same time. Being a "grown up" means being biologically ready to well, procreate. Being a "grown up" would also being being responsible to what you, well, create. Being a "grown up" also means being ready to take challenges that will, eventually, help you progress in the future. It would also mean that you have to face the consequences of your actions if ever you fail.

It's all excruciatingly challenging, the freedom and the restraints of being a full-fledge, ahem, woman.

Not that I'm complaining. I take pride that at 18/ 19 I'm earning my own money. It's just that there are times that I miss being the kid. I miss not having to do anything else than complain about school projects and quizzes and worrying about my baon for the day, if its enough for me to get home... I miss it and then I get this weird feeling of, OMG, contentment. Because, truth be told, I like where I am now. I wouldn't stay if I didn't. And it makes me scared that being content, familiarizing with the ropes of this world I am now in, because of a sudden change of plans last summer, that I might not be able to go back to my original destination.

Well, where I thought I was supposed to be in the end anyway.

When I think about being a teacher, I get all warm and homey and safe. I know its what I'm meant to be. Financially speaking, yeah, this job is very, very productive. Yet I just don't get that feeling of triumph in it. Not yet.

I guess thinking that I might, in the long run, get there is what's scaring me. I'm not sure that if I do get there, would that mean that I'm not going to that other road I've always thought that is for me?

Complications... nothing but complications, Beryl. Way to go have yourself a headache!

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It's Friday thank God and I'm on VTO. Third time this week which, I am hoping, would save me from having such a low production this week.

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I'm going to UST later this afternoon to treat Rochelle, Gefreliz, Fang Mi, Aileen, Javi, and Lloyd and Oliver (if they come) to lunch at KFC, as a belated celebration of my 19th birthday last Monday, and as an advance celebration of Ai's 19th tomorrow and Chelle's 20th on Sunday. Hoping to get destressed when I see my friends. The last time I was there, I got all teary-eyed for missing school. Perhaps this is what I need to get a better perspective on what I truly want to do with my life... *cross fingers*

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It's funny. When I was 12 I was so sure what I will do... I'm going to meet the boy of my dreams whose name is Brandon and he'll be perfect... He and I will graduate and get our jobs and get married and he will propose to me by the beach and he'll be my first everything...

Now, at 19, I'm not sure if Brandon still exists, if he ever truly did... I'm not sure if I'll ever graduate and get a real job, one that I would love... I'm not sure if anyone, if not Brandon, would ever see me... All I know is that I'm filled with questions... Wondering when will I get them answered...

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Bought Witch 63 yesterday!

It's Php95 already!

OMG!

Love Irma and Joel though... ;p