Out of Sync

Hanggang maari iniiwasan kong sumulat sa Filipino. Mas sanay ako na mag-English, malamang dahil sa mga sumusunod:

1. Lahat ng binabasa ko ay English.
2. Halos lahat ng pinapanood ko ay English. (American TV shows).

Hindi naman sa ikinahihiya ko ang sarili kong wika, talagang hindi lang ako sanay. Nahihirapan akong magsalita ng Filipino ng hindi nagbabangit ng salitang English. I think they call it codemixing or codeswitching. As much as possible I avoid doing that, and I get annoyed by "kolehiyalas" who actively speak in the 'taglish' form. Kung magTatagalog ka, magTagalog ka na nang maayos! I'd rather hear someone having a jumpy English, or Kalabaw English as some refer to it. At least they are giving effort in speaking in the second languange. Hindi mo man maiiwasan maghalo ng Filipino at English, pero huwag mo naman sadyain dahil lang iniisip mo na cute ka, kasi hindi.

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I deleted all my accounts in TeenTalk, partly because both of them had been stagnant since I signed up and partly because I do not feel like I still belong in that bracket. Sure I'm only nineteen, but the topics that I would like to talk about aren't something "kids" (i.e. ages 12- 17) would be interested in or know anything about, for that matter.

So now I'm signing up in GIRLTalk, which is in femalenetwork.com. My UN is simply my first name. Hopefully I'd get to meet cyberbuddies in this new forum of mine.

+ A little bit history: I've been a TeenTalker since I was 14. Been on and off in posting. I also have an inactive account in witchmag.com.ph. I can't delete it since I can't remember the password and I have no time in getting to it. Oh well. +

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Mom and I had a disagreement earlier. There are times that I just can't stand her and her not-so-smart questions. I'm not goint to divulge the whole conversation, I'm just going to say that it ended up me walking off and not getting my breakfast. I've eaten now, with Mimi, Aileen and their co-majors. I'll be off home by 1 PM so I have like 30mins left. She hasn't texted me and I'm not planning to text her either. And that's that.

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I feel like I'm a stranger amongst my former co-majors. I feel out of sync with them, like we didn't have a complete year together. I'm more comfortable with Mimi and the other Science majors. I guess I'm just feeling this because I am again stuck with no plan in the future. All my plans are for the long-term: graduating, passing the board, getting a job, teaching for at least five yrs in a high school, taking my masteral to become a professor and so on. What I'm going to do next semester, I have no idea.

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Okay so its raining outside according to RX. I'm listening to radio on my cellphone, while blogging my afternoon away in the Internet Station in UST Lib. I think the reason why my fingers hurt because I write and type so much...

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My brother has been absent for two days, second day today. He'd been suffering from headache and sore throat since Wednesday. I'm not sure how this would affect his ROTC training (he's a 2nd lt already) and he's need to get Math101 this semester. Well see.

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I'm going to post my life story. Wala lang, gusto ko lang.

I borrowed Coraline by Neil Gaiman. Started reading it yesterday, but was too busy taking care of my brother. Will write my review soon.