Writer's Block

I don't know why I'm finding it so difficult to write, when I have a lot to write about. For one, I passed both the Skills Assessments we had this week. I got 74/85 in the written SA3 and a 96/100 in the roleplay SA1. SAs are pretty difficult, and trainees are only given at least 3 times to fail (ie 3 strikes and you're out). I don't want to fail of course. I've never been good in failing.

Coach Marc is here reviewing us for the SA2 later today. Our trainer, Elaine, is still out sick. I've got no complains though; Marc is very cute. Dawn already told everyone I had a crush on him, but now everyone thinks she also likes Marc. It's all very high school-ish. I'm keeping my mouth shut because the work environment is different from what I am familiar with, so am trying to be mature. Dawn couldn't believe it when I told her that I am perkier than she is. I've been very un-Beryl here, which isn't all that hard. I guess having my wisdom tooth had affected my way of thinking and manners.

Marc's being manipulated by our bossy wavemate Jane, which isn't really new. She's very manipulative, demanding and its her nature to be that way. At first I found it a bit annoying, but now, I'm amused by it. I can be manipulative too if I want to be. And besides, no one can manipulate you without your consent. Wavemate Jenny, however, is very annoyed at her. I told her that if you don't like someone, you shouldn't put too much energy on disliking her. It just doesn't make sense. Besides, the person with the resentment carries the heavier baggage. Believe me, I know.

Elaine just arrived. She's been sick for the past two days. I have to finish this post fast. She gave us 25-minute break, because she plans to maximize the time today. I'd have to finish answering the workbook later. Wonder how am I going to do that, with Tito Mike, Tita Alelie and my stranger for a cousin Noah staying with us this weekend.

They arrived earlier today, while I was taking a nap. I don't really know how I am going to act around them. Emailing them is one thing; having actual conversations with them is very different. It's like we're talking, but not about the things we should talk about. That's how its always been with me and my paternal relatives, ever since dad died... But that's a story I prefer not to get deep into... It just makes me feel really down. And who wants to be down, right?

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Am watching One Tree Hill over at veoh.com. Season 3. Loving it.

I'm so glad I brought my binder with me. I was thinking that maybe Elaine wouldn't be in again, but I realize I can do the workbook here.

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Well, later.