Stressed Out!

I'm soooooo stressed out! I've just finished my third skill developer and it is, by far, the hardest SD I ever had. And that says a lot, considering I only had three. The stressful thing about is that I know what to do, only I can't do it correctly. Yet. Am not giving up thought. Not yet, anyway. (Joke!)

It's just that I wasn't able to enjoy the SD, unlike how I enjoyed it in the first two times. I felt out of control and crazy, my heart beating so fast and I feel hot and cold all at the same time. It's really hard to define, the sensation of being put to test, but all I can say is that I didn't like it. Not with this SD anyway.

(BTW, SDs are basically role play practices wherein the coaches will try our knowledge in navigating and communicating with the customers aka RCI members at the same time. I really like it, because you don't go dumb with the process. But its soooo freaking stressful!!! One wrong click and if you don't know where to go, you might just make a big and unresolvable mistake.)

This is the only SD I wasn't able to build rapport. I actually feel as if I went head-first down my table of progress and that only adds to the stress.

As if it isn't enough, I have a big problem with my ATM card. I don't remember the pin I typed yesterday after changing the pin given by the bank. I was too sleepy to think that I need to remember my pin. So I would have to go to the bank later, to fix it and be able to withdraw all the money. I'd be moving it into my other account and giving 3T to mom. I also want to have my haircut shorter and hassle free, which I know I'd regret but what the heck! Am stressed.

At least, with all this stress with work, I've got no more energy in stressing about other things... The silver lining in the big, ugly, gray cloud looming over my head...