Change

For whatever reason, I feel as if I need some major makeover. It's been a month since I started working and it really feels... empowering. I found out that I already got my pay in my account and that also feels really good. Even if I know that money is merely a thing, it feels great to be secure because I have it.

I deleted my previous account in Teentalk, and created a new one --- beryllium. I'm hoping that this time aroudn I can get true friends in the forum, and still be able to have some mature gabbing sessions with teens my age. As much as possible, I want to enjoy my being a "kid". Working has taught me a lot of them, and one of them is that when you start being part of the work force, it would make you someone responsible of your own doings, of your own life.

That's scary. Especially if you do it so suddenly, take that turn and turn back from the road you were SOOOO sure was what you wanted. Then you'd try to at least make yourself believe that at the end of this cross road you'd be able to find your way back to that road you wanted.

But what happens if you don't?

The answer may sound simple --- you look for a new road. But saying it is far easier than actually doing it.

And off ago ranting about my life. Drama overload anyone?

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We're not doing anything right now, just watching some old DVD, although no one is actually watching it. Everyone's taking the chance to use the free Internet. Have I mentioned that I love this job? LOL

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I got a lot of compliments today because of how I look, but still I feel as if I'm looking and waiting for something that not only can not be found, but does not actually exist... :'c