The Older Sister

My brother and I aren't superclose, but we get along most of the time. Today I accompanied him to his interview for the UST CRS, after a long and dramatic encounter with mom last night.

Here's the thing: I resent my brother for being so overly taken care of by our beloved mother that now it's hard for me, and for mom, to make him follow the rules. He's not a bad boy per se; he's just frustratingly lazy. He never once washed the dishes he used without my having to bribe him. And even if he does wash the dishes, he'd only wash his own. Same goes with his clothes, his things, et cetera. And my being such an individualist hinders our technically "bonding sessions" ie house cleaning. I prefer to work on my own because he wouldn't follow my system and ruin everything.

So you can imagine, that for the most part, am not a really good ate.

Be that as it may, I am trying, but it's difficult because my mom already has this idea that I am resenting my brother at all times. Which is of course, so untrue. I resent the fact that my brother has to have help every step of the way, so when mom asked me last night --- indirectly, mind you --- to go with my brother on his interview today, I --- also indirectly --- said that he could do it on his own.

I guess it was the stress or the fact that it was late and mom was tired, but she got all "If it was a friend who needed help, you wouldn't think twice" speech. (Note: I don't get it when people who are already tired get so agitated and get mad. Isn't it more tiring to get mad? Sheesh!) In the end she told me I could decide for myself, with all the drama ek-ek she just had to add. (I'm not comfortable of writing each line in this blog.)

You might be thinking that my mom's little drama stunt affected me, which is why I was with my brother. Actually it wasn't that. I did want to go with him, I just didn't want him to fully depend on me. My final Finals today starts at 10 AM and that meant I could've slept in. So I texted him last night (I was locking myself in my room) and told him if he still want me to go with him, he will be the one to wake me up. And the rest is history.

I realized something funny last night. I'm EIGHTEEN YEARS OLD! I'm of legal age and I can decide on my own. Mom said, in part of her drama moment, that I could decide for myself. My friend Mimi is asking me to tutor English to two Chinese students of her mom. I'd earn money but I would've to stay over at Mimi's house, since the students wouldn't be available till 5PM. I was going to ask for mom's permission, but not to stay over at Mimi's. Even if she's my friend I wouldn't be able to live with her. I was planning on proposing to mom if I can stay over at Yacal for the weekdays, so I wouldn't be so tired anymore and I could teach and earn money. The thing left to do now is talk to my Aunts. Hopefully they let me stay over next semester. But that's for later. I still have some questions for Mimi, which I would be able to ask tomorrow, after their final exams.

Hay. Second year is almost over. I didn't even study for the exam today. Too tired, too lazy. I bet later on I'd regret it, but what the heck.

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I wasn't able to meet up with Javi's Korean friend who he said looked a lot like Joo Ji-hoon. Maybe later. Hahaha.