Itchy for Change

Am not totally sure if its because of the upcoming summer vacation, or because I am now 18 and my summer is bound to be more exciting now compared to my previous summers as a minor, or because I'm just totally psyched on having the summer I want no matter what but, for some reason, I am itching for change. I'm talking about major Beryl makeover, something that would make me feel more powerful, more organized, more Me.

Then again, maybe I'm just really bored with my life.

But whatever it is, I've decided to make my blog a priority this summer, even if I won't be online at all times since we don't have ready Internet connection at home, or a working PC, or a telephone line... Basically, all I'm saying is that I'd try my best to squeeze in quality blogging time during my vacation, while I'm looking for a job, saving up, watching TV (Hah! We've got Hable now! At least I can still be "in" with the movies, even if I won't be able to watch a lot of the new ones in the cinema. Austerity measures, people!), thinking of doing house chores, actually doing house chores and dozing off whenever I want to.

Now I don't know about you, but at this point of my life, those activities are pure heaven. I'm actually grinning from ear to ear as I write this, a true reflection of how appealing it would be for me to actually do nothing.

But since I still have one final examination tomorrow, and its a big one, I would have to live with the fact that I've got to study. A lot.

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Then again, there's always later. I'm waiting for my friend Javi to text me where we'll meet up on the way home. He's going to introduce me to his Korean friend who he swears is a look-alike of my newest crush Joo Ji-hoon, Prince Gian of the Koreanoval being shown in ABS-CBN, Princess Hours (from which I am currently obssessed on). Since my mom has been bugging me all month, telling me to get myself a boyfriend (as if that's so easy!), I figured I could give it a shot. I'm just meeting up with a friend of a friend if you think about it. But you never know for sure right?

My mom's also making me text this 23-year-old Malaysian guy she met through an office mate, and it's kinda funny to see my mom pimping me to guys. I guess she was affected when I told about my, well, insecurity, for being boyfriendless all my life. Oh sure she told me I was still young, but she was affected. I could see that.

I wonder if my being single all my life is also a factor for this sudden need for major change.... Hmm...

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I chanced by a Shannon Elizabeth movie on HBO last night, entitled "Confessions of an American Bride". It is a chick flick but I was feeling it last night. The story revolved around Sam (played by Shannon Elizabeth), a 20-ish soon-to-be wife of her handsome prince charming named Ben (played by Eddie McClintock). Everything was OK with them; they were in love and wanted to be togethere. Then disaster struck when Sam's old college crush Luke (played by Geoff Stults, who I have to say, is HOT!) who apparently also crushed on Sam. It is a classic story of a girl choosing the One she has or the One she always wanted. I particularly liked the story because it was real, it was comedic and it was honest. If I was Sam, I would also be confused. "What if in the future, the guy I've always cared for, but couldn't care less if I lived or died, confesses his love for me, even when I'm already taken?" Unfortunately, that's not the applicable question at the moment. No, the more applicable question is "When would I ever be able to tell people that I am taken?" (I think it'd sound more pessimistic if the question was "If I'd ever be taken..." and I'm not in the mood to welcome dark thoughts.)

Oh, I also watched Brittany Murphy's The Little Black Book last week. A chick flick with a twist. I don't particularly like Britanny, but the movie was cool. Highly recommended for girls who have broken up with their boyfriend because of his ex.

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Well, am off to type our ESP Finals. And to play with the lay-out. And to link other people/ new friends from TeenTalk.

Man, am craving for Cerealicious! Can't wait for Friday! Freedom!!!