24 Hours = Not Enough

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It's weird. I see my mom and my brother everyday and yet I have this nagging feeling of homesickness. It's not surprise I guess, since whenever I am home, I'm doing tons of things that are very important, but they tend to disregard the feeling of home... It's like my body's inside my house, but my mind still wandering off to the things I have to get done for school.

I guess I just love school too much. And too much can sometimes can be a bad thing, right?

The thing is, I've been feeling really overworked and sleepless these past few days. It's as if the 24 hours I get to be alive for a day just isn't enough for me to sleep, eat, work and recreate.

I know I should be thankful for being alive, but I can't help but imagine how heavenly it would be if I could just curl up on my bed, with a good book and some snacks (that aren't necessarily healthy.. I've long since given up on caring on my figure. And I found out, the less I criticize myself about it, the better I look. Hah.), with no care in the world.

Sadly, I can't just do that, for the in following days I'd be working my ass off to finish my sophomore year with a big, blasting bang. I have to finish the requirements, review for the finals, pass the finals, and say goodbye to my being a mere second year. Next year, we'd be having our thesis and I just can't wait. (Not!)

You know what could make my year end better? If for once in my life, someone who'd care to get to know me --- the real me --- comes and sweeps me off my feet with his dashing good looks, sincerity and honesty.... Ooooh... Umaatake nanaman ang girl sa loob ko na masama pa din ang loob at wala akong boyfriend. She often comes alive whenever I'm really stressed, or tired, or envious. And right now am all three.

1:30PM na. I was supposed to meet with Genay and Barbs today, but Genay told me we'd be hanging out with Ruth, and I just don't want to see her now. At least not with Genay. If I see her now, I might just regret what I say to her, so no thanks. I'd rather hide in the comforts of the Internet that tell Ruth off. I've already scheduled it on Monday, and I hate having my schedule suddenly altered by other people.

Then again, I better go. Baka di na sapat ang baon ko for this. Naka one and a half hour na din ako ah.

Well, later.

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Kate Middleton, Prince William's girlfriend (What could she be feeling now whenever she's being called behind the name of the Prince, like she has no identity of her own? That's a toughie, isn't it?), ruined all my fantasies on Will. Oh well. She is pretty, in a way. Can you imagine what she could be feeling at this moment? Rumors had been spreading all over UK about her and the Prince's getting married in the near future. God forbid! (Joke!) I still haven't made my mind about her. It's hard to let go of Prince William, him being the center of most of my fantasies. At first I though Kate looked older than 25, and much older than Prince William, whose only 24. I guess she's just mature for her age. Could she be willing to sacrifice her "freedom" and privacy for Will? We'll see. Until then, I'd still play my Marrying-Prince Will- and- Uniting- Europe and Asia fantasy whenever I can. And if they get married, there's always Harry. Hehehe.